This is going to be a super short post because I have ten minutes before I need to get ready for work. (Yay I love waking up at 5…she said sarcastically…)
I have some thoughts. And I’m about to spew them.
I’ve always been someone to take days, weeks and months to ponder decisions before I make them. I weigh every outcome and possibility in attempt to basically predict what exactly could happen if I do X versus Y. Normally when making these decisions I decide NOT to do something because I’m scared or worried of what could happen if I take a leap.
Lately, I have not been that way. I’ve been doing things spontaneously, taking big opportunities just because, and putting myself out there.
I recently made a decision that is pretty huge, and has been something I’ve been thinking about for probably 3/4 of my life. I finally set things in stone yesterday with this decision, and I’m proud of myself.
I’m proud of myself because I’ve been working so hard lately to be able to make this happen. I’m proud of myself because I’ve been thinking about this for so long and I know that my brain will not shut up and let me live until I do this. I have put it off because of so many reasons, and within the last month of really thinking things over and weighing options I realized something–life is SO short. I don’t know if I’m going to live to be 21, and I turn 21 in a week. I don’t mean to be morbid or anything, but it’s the truth! None of us know if we will be here in a year. Even a month. A day. 30 minutes.
This is something I’ve been wanting to do for so long and I see no point in waiting. It is going to make me happy, and right now I am ALL about making me happy. Rarely do I do things for myself. Rarely do I listen to the side of my brain that cares about my soul and my wants and desires instead of listening to reason and logic and what makes “sense.”
I realize you’re probably lost because of how vague I am being, but not to worry–I’ll let you all in very soon!
Now, this decision I made was a pretty big one–a big commitment, investment, etc. But it doesn’t have to be decisions like this all of the time.
Eat the cookie because life is short. Stay up late with your friends even though you work all day tomorrow because life is short. Send a risky text. (Not riskAY, risky. Like vulnerable. Do not send someone a nude and tell them that I told you to.)
I realize I’m not the first human to make this discovery. I get that “life is short” is probably in the top 3 most cliche phrases out there. But it took me until recently to actually take that statement for what it really means, and to embrace and apply it to my life.
I don’t think large decisions should be made on a whim because “YOLO” so do not think that’s what I’m saying. Like I said, I thought about this for YEARS. I just decided to finally make it happen, because it is going to make me happy, and life is just too short to wait.