This post is happening because I’m frustrated.
I’m frustrated with the amount of judgement that happens both in person and online. However, it’s so easy to leave a rude comment online or on social media, so that is what I am currently frustrated with.
We’re all so different. We all think differently because we all have different life experiences that have shaped us into who we are. Right? Right.
What right do we have to comment on others’ lives and tell them how to live their lives? Why do we think it’s okay to say, “No, you’re eating the wrong things,” or “You should do it like THIS because MY way is better,” etc.
Let people live their own lives. Give advice when appropriate, but never tell someone that what they’re doing is wrong simply because you don’t agree with it.
I’m also tired of people telling me I’m still too thin. Guess what? I’ve ALWAYS been underweight. Every single person in my family is underweight. We also all eat like men. We’re healthy. Everyone in my entire extended family is tiny. My mom has ten siblings and my dad has five and all of them and all of their children are in the same boat. WE’RE SMALL HUMANS.
Just because YOU are not underweight, and for the majority of the general public, my weight is not optimal for my height does NOT mean I’m personally unhealthy. It does not. I am not. You don’t know me, or my body, or my genetics. Keep your opinions to yourself. Twenty pounds less…yeah, I was too freakin’ thin. I understand that. That was twenty pounds ago.
That said, I think I’m done doing any sort of eating disorder or recovery-related posts. I’m just done. Maybe later I’ll get back to those topics but for now my blog will be focused on other aspects of my life. Fashion, beauty, health, fitness, lifestyle…
I’m done being overly criticized and told that the way I’m recovering is “wrong” or that I’m not heavy enough. YOU DON’T KNOW. I eat a hell of a lot more than most people in recovery and I know that. My weekly calorie average is 26,000. That works out to over 3,0000 every day.
I understand that when you have a blog that gets 20,000 views a day you’re going to get a lot of crap no matter what. I get that. I get that being vulnerable puts you in a position to be criticized and that there’s no way around that on the interweb. I’ve dealt with it for a long time and I’m alright with it. I just would rather not write about eating disorders and recovery anymore because that intensifies that effect by about 9,000%.
I’m just done. I’m not responding to anymore negative comments. I’m done with people making assumptions about my life when they have no idea. I would never comment on someone’s life choices in a negative way. If I disagree with a particular decision or method I just don’t say anything and forget about it because IT DOES NOT CONCERN ME. It is THEIR life to live and their decisions to make and I do not care one ounce about how that turns out. Why? I’m too concerned with my own life and own decisions. I’ll continue to post my life updates and do what I always do, but I’m not responding to those comments any longer. I’ll delete them and move on with my life, because it’s my life. And your life is yours. Go live it.
I’m not sorry that this post was so harsh and negative because this has been weighing on my mind for a long time and lately I have received so many comments, emails and messages from people telling me how to live my life and how I’m still too skinny. Newsflash: I’m weight restored according to my doctor. All of my blood work is normal for once in my life. Even prior to my eating disorder my blood was out of whack, and now it isn’t. My heart rate and blood pressure is normal. I have energy. I don’t have anxiety. I feel like ME again. I’m fine if I gain 10 more pounds. I’m actively still in gaining mode and I don’t care if no one believes that. So go ahead and try to tell me that I’m wrong. It’s astounding how much I don’t care.