Live Your Own Life.

Hi humans.

This post is happening because I’m frustrated.

I’m frustrated with the amount of judgement that happens both in person and online. However, it’s so easy to leave a rude comment online or on social media, so that is what I am currently frustrated with.

We’re all so different. We all think differently because we all have different life experiences that have shaped us into who we are. Right? Right.

What right do we have to comment on others’ lives and tell them how to live their lives? Why do we think it’s okay to say, “No, you’re eating the wrong things,” or “You should do it like THIS because MY way is better,” etc.

Let people live their own lives. Give advice when appropriate, but never tell someone that what they’re doing is wrong simply because you don’t agree with it.

I’m also tired of people telling me I’m still too thin. Guess what? I’ve ALWAYS been underweight. Every single person in my family is underweight. We also all eat like men. We’re healthy. Everyone in my entire extended family is tiny. My mom has ten siblings and my dad has five and all of them and all of their children are in the same boat. WE’RE SMALL HUMANS.

Just because YOU are not underweight, and for the majority of the general public, my weight is not optimal for my height does NOT mean I’m personally unhealthy. It does not. I am not. You don’t know me, or my body, or my genetics. Keep your opinions to yourself. Twenty pounds less…yeah, I was too freakin’ thin. I understand that. That was twenty pounds ago.

That said, I think I’m done doing any sort of eating disorder or recovery-related posts. I’m just done. Maybe later I’ll get back to those topics but for now my blog will be focused on other aspects of my life. Fashion, beauty, health, fitness, lifestyle…

I’m done being overly criticized and told that the way I’m recovering is “wrong” or that I’m not heavy enough. YOU DON’T KNOW. I eat a hell of a lot more than most people in recovery and I know that. My weekly calorie average is 26,000. That works out to over 3,0000 every day.

I understand that when you have a blog that gets 20,000 views a day you’re going to get a lot of crap no matter what. I get that. I get that being vulnerable puts you in a position to be criticized and that there’s no way around that on the interweb. I’ve dealt with it for a long time and I’m alright with it. I just would rather not write about eating disorders and recovery anymore because that intensifies that effect by about 9,000%.

I’m just done. I’m not responding to anymore negative comments. I’m done with people making assumptions about my life when they have no idea. I would never comment on someone’s life choices in a negative way. If I disagree with a particular decision or method I just don’t say anything and forget about it because IT DOES NOT CONCERN ME. It is THEIR life to live and their decisions to make and I do not care one ounce about how that turns out. Why? I’m too concerned with my own life and own decisions. I’ll continue to post my life updates and do what I always do, but I’m not responding to those comments any longer. I’ll delete them and move on with my life, because it’s my life. And your life is yours. Go live it.

I’m not sorry that this post was so harsh and negative because this has been weighing on my mind for a long time and lately I have received so many comments, emails and messages from people telling me how to live my life and how I’m still too skinny. Newsflash: I’m weight restored according to my doctor. All of my blood work is normal for once in my life. Even prior to my eating disorder my blood was out of whack, and now it isn’t. My heart rate and blood pressure is normal. I have energy. I don’t have anxiety. I feel like ME again. I’m fine if I gain 10 more pounds. I’m actively still in gaining mode and I don’t care if no one believes that. So go ahead and try to tell me that I’m wrong. It’s astounding how much I don’t care.

-A.M.

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11 thoughts on “Live Your Own Life.

  1. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. People always criticize my recovery and they really just need to mind their own business. Please don’t let the idiots deter you from what YOU want to post/write about. Your recovery posts are so insightful and honest, I think people just can’t deal with it. You are such an inspiration to me and you’ve helped me more than you can know. I’m always here to talk or help, and I wish you a speedy recovery after your surgery, one that’s filled with ice cream and rest ❤

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  2. I’m sorry that you are going through this right now. Unfortunately that when you put yourself out there I guess you have to take the negative along with the positive. As long as you know how amazing you are and how far you’ve come that is all that matters. Surround yourself with the positive people in your life and forget the haters because they will be there no matter where you go in life. Stay strong love!

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  3. You should be proud of everything you have achieved across all areas of your life and you have been an inspiration to so many people in numerous ways. I can appreciate your frustration and similarly believe that everyone is unique and deserves to be treated as such. It is great to hear that you are feeling yourself again and I hope everything else that you are going through right now turns out positively. Your blog is always interesting to read for both its recovery related and non-recovery related content, and it has been incredibly brave of you to open up about your experiences over the past months. I look forward to getting to know more about your hobbies and interests and wish you all the very best. xx

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  4. I am so sorry that you’ve been receiving negative, critical comments. If I personally ever said anything that offended you, I sincerely apologize. I’m glad that you can ignore the stupid things other people might think. Their opinions are worthless. You do you, babe. ❤ ❤

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  5. Selfishly, I am really going to miss your recovery-related posts. That being said, it’s completely understandable why you would make this decision. I hope that in the future, if you really feel the urge to write an entry about or involving recovery, you won’t hesitate. For every negative commenter out there, you have hundreds (thousands?) of followers that read every one of your entries and derive an immeasurable amount of inspiration and hope from them. I hope the things you alluded to struggling with lately are becoming more manageable. Take care, Kristy.

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  6. I really hate to hear that people have been so critical of you. Your posts about recovery have honestly inspired me so much. I’m naturally tiny too so I know how you feel…and while I’m not even close to being weight restored yet…it hurts when people comment on how tiny you are all the time. I hope you feel better and know that you’ve really made an impact on my life and trying to recover 🙂

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  7. I am so sorry you have to go through so much judgement and criticism everyday. It is inevitable to not receive hate when you are serving as an example for others and publicly documenting your life. You have come so far in your recovery journey and I have loved being a part of it. I am very happy you are moving on with your life <3.

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  8. annie, i think people are just concerned for you. you SHOULD be weighing more than when you were 18, pre-anorexia or not. women gain weight until their mid-twenties. i don’t believe you’re intentionally as thin as you are, i just think it’s dangerous for you to dismiss others’ concern based on a ‘pre-ed’ weight.
    also, i think you may get more support if you disclose the procedure you are having. people WANT to support you, but you have to understand that people are wary of giving money for an ‘unknown.’ again, you are under no obligation to share anything you don’t want to. x

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  9. I fucking love this am an so amazed and inspired by it. It’s your life. Nobody else’s. Huge applause to you for realizing that and in addition being so clear about it. This is amazing.

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